It felt like all the inner work over the last few years was lost. But I came to the realization that all was not lost after all because I have been practicing the tools to pull out of it and recovery time is becoming quicker. So do not give up if you are still dealing with the emotional reflexes still involved with that life. Each time will get easier. Each recovery will strengthen you. Keep on keeping on. We must keep on swimming. Know you are not alone in this also. Reach out.