Ever just wake up feeling pissy? I think how last night I reached out to people incapable of expressing their heart but expected them to. Why do I do that?
I have been getting angry with myself lately. It all started rupturing in October. I allowed myself to be pushed to the limits.
I lost it, melted down and it festered into a hot lava surging through me until it all exploded out of my being like a fuming volcano. I bellowed and even spit as I released this rage thats been in me for so long..
I was horrified with myself. Didn't eat for days, could hardly function. I thought I ruined everyone's life that witnessed it. The deep pain of baring such darkness. I could not lift myself above it. I preach to look at the situation from an eagles view, but the mouses view was all I could muster. I counsel others to allow this grim entiety within to be exonerated once and for all but I could not reach that compromise.
I have since forgiven myself for having limits.. I am not so sure others have forgiven me, but it is my hope they have. This video link explains how we should love our dark side also.
https://ancestralmedicinewomen.com/the-dark-side-of-the-human-being/
I have been getting angry with myself lately. It all started rupturing in October. I allowed myself to be pushed to the limits.
I lost it, melted down and it festered into a hot lava surging through me until it all exploded out of my being like a fuming volcano. I bellowed and even spit as I released this rage thats been in me for so long..
I was horrified with myself. Didn't eat for days, could hardly function. I thought I ruined everyone's life that witnessed it. The deep pain of baring such darkness. I could not lift myself above it. I preach to look at the situation from an eagles view, but the mouses view was all I could muster. I counsel others to allow this grim entiety within to be exonerated once and for all but I could not reach that compromise.
I have since forgiven myself for having limits.. I am not so sure others have forgiven me, but it is my hope they have. This video link explains how we should love our dark side also.
https://ancestralmedicinewomen.com/the-dark-side-of-the-human-being/
